Body of Work

Here I am @ work on a Cold Monday. And I have decided that today's theme will be slack.
I am going to attempt to do as little as possible today - and do it in the most artful way that I know. It definitely helps that I have an office and am able to shut the door. Here is how it is gonna go down:

After I send out a few "under a tight deadline" obligatory e-mails I will walk around with a few file folders stuffed with random printed emails and assorted blank papers - and visit the 4 people that I actually get along with. I will tell them how busy I am - and how tight my deadline is - and that I will be working in my office with the door shut. I will ask if anybody is doing a Starbucks run - and if they can get me something (I am usually the one who happily goes, so this will plant the "busy" seed in their minds).

I will pour myself a green tea - take it back to my desk...hand write a note in a sharpie- "please knock - under a strict deadline" and place it strategically on my door. This says that I am far to busy with my work to actually type out a note and print it off...and gives off the "wow, Caprice is busy" vibe.

I will close the door, but not completely - leave it open just a smidge. That way people can glance in at me as they ALWAYS seem to do when they walk by - It's not a car crash people, move along - and they will see good old me working as hard as I usually do.

I may even dial "o" and asked fashion victim receptionist if she minds picking me up a sandwich @ lunch because I am too busy to go out.... and I know although she is annoyed with me she will let others know how annoyed she is, but really spreading the rumor of how busy I am today.

What I will really be doing:

. Looking for Technical Writing or Creative writing work.
. Reading. I was lent an amazing book that I practically want to eat...and I can't put it down.
. Shopping for shoes on line (thank goodness ebay is not firewalled)
. Monitoring my facebook via gmail - (firewalled facebook sucks IT. I know you use it!)
. Navel gazing

Why?

Well, after checking out some friends link, and having countless friends that work in the movies, I realize that except for being published in Chatelaine magazine 5 years ago, and editing a community paper, that I have no larger body of work to show for my 15 years of work. Sure there are a few office manuals and personnel files kicking around out there, but really, what have I got to show for my years of work? At least a TV show or a Movie shares with others what you do. All this shit I do is meaningless...I mean really - what I do sometimes feels like a make-work project. Designing more efficient ways to group desks, ensuring employees have a health program in place... organizing the Christmas party nobody really wants to attend.

I am feeling the need to create something tangible. Just need it to pay as well. Maybe that is where I went wrong.

I am going to take today to think about it....excuse me while I just prepare these files - and I have a sign to make.