Techonolgy and le grand malade.

I had no idea just how connected, or plugged in I was to the web until I lost service earlier this week. The little white Mac Book I have sitting so quietly looking like
left over storm-trooper parts is a very important tool in my life these days.

Safari decided that he did not wish to live with the rest of my applications, so he moved out without any notice and not as much as a good bye. At first, I thought ok, perhaps Safari is sick or maybe he did not want to hang out, but no - when I called apple help they confirmed that yes, safari did leave. And I would have to go online using a proxy server until they could get him back for me. Using firefox feels like I am cheating on safari somehow, and is good for a quick fix, but not totally satisfying at all.

This is all so odd - not being able to chat with my friends online. It has only been about 4 days, but I miss you all so very much. The up side is that I can browse my fave sites such as facebook *guilty as charged - but that I can't seem to "chat" with anybody.

Contemplating a new camera purchase soon. An Artist friend (xoxoxxox) of mine has a great new camera and is branching off into a new area of work. I am truly enjoying the new art he is producing, although I feel like somewhat of a voier looking and not saying much. His modern art, as well now as photography is stunning, and I don't want to be one out of a hundred women that seem to be in his fan club by paying him gushing public compliments. He seems to have many, many female admirers. Which is rad, but also intimidating. Is that odd? I think we all want to be special to people we have horrible crushes on, no matter what or how often we see them. Mad crushes are horrible - it is better when they chase you I think. A bit of mystery is good, and staying silent sometimes is better than gushing forth streams of compliments, etc. Maybe this Safari outage is a good thing in disguise. Who knows.

Le sigh. I think I will go on another ride and try not to think of the handsome and talented men I am lucky to know.